After reading this passage and devotional, I am was asked to think of a time when God’s presence was evident in my life. I feel like it has been long enough since the “incident” to talk about it more publically.
I used to drink.
Like…a lot. And when I drank I was extremely selfish and thoughtless. No one else mattered but me. This went on for many years. (more than what is legal, considering I started drinking at the age of 15)
There were multiple times in my life that I drove under the influence, picked fights and acted a complete fool. I made many poor decisions and broke a lot of hearts. But the one thing I never did was get a DUI or hurt someone else or myself while driving.
It is really embarrassing to admit all of this, but I’ve gotten over it a little because this isn’t the first time I have talked about it. I first acknowledged my problem at my very first Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) meeting on Monday, November 19, 2012. 36 hours before going to that meeting, I drove home from a bar so intoxicated that I have no recollection of it whatsoever.
My husband said he didn’t want to go with me because he was tired. It was for a friend’s birthday. I said I would be back soon. I said I wouldn’t drink too much. And yet there I was, pulling into my driveway, covered in throw up, at 2 am and fighting with my husband who was leaving the next day for a week long underway.
There is no reason why I should have made it safely. There is no reason why I shouldn’t have crashed in the tunnel and killed myself or someone else. There is also no reason why I shouldn’t have gotten a DUI for acting like such an irresponsible idiot.
But I made it home. And even though I made my husband extremely furious (for good reason), ruined my favorite scarf and felt like crap the next day, God protected me. God had been protecting me for a very, very long time.
I spent the next day (November 18) emotionally (and physically) recovering. My husband had left me a note. It was pretty simple: stop acting like an idiot because I can’t stand it. Obviously I am paraphrasing. That isn’t the kind of note I want to remember or have as a keepsake. But the point was clear. I had to change.
I haven’t had a drink since that day. It has been 6 months and I don’t miss it. It’s easy. I am happy! That is why it is easy! God is in my heart, and THAT is why it is easy! He saved my life…again!
Even though I don’t go to AA meetings regularly anymore, I still go whenever it is time to pick up another chip. (Chips are tokens to receive and keep with you marking certain lengths of time without drinking). I was beaming when I picked up my 6 months chip because that is the longest I have gone without drinking and I have God to thank for that. Those chips are my reminder of what God did for me, has done for me and continues to do for me every day: protect me.
TODAY I will remember what God has done for me and how blessed I am for that.