Snakes and spiders, heights, even death. These are superficial fears that many people share. But I would like to get personal. Sure, unknown insects freak me out. But my biggest fear?
Like most fears, there is a technical term to define it.
My experience with atelphobia began as a child. There’s no need to get into the nitty gritty. It mostly boiled down to my looks. But the good news is that after years of self loathing, destruction and poor self image, I have begun to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It took a lot of reflection and a good man to even begin to undo the wrong.
Since this fear is slowly fading, naturally a new fear will make itself known. It starts with the letter d and rhymes with bleployment.
Being the wife of a sailor, it comes as no surprise that deployment is just around the corner. And THAT is currently my greatest fear. Nothing in particular. Just the whole thing and everything that comes with it. Separated by many months and an entire ocean, I’m terrified about what could happen and how we will change. Maintaining an emotional connection will be difficult, and I can’t help but think….what if he forgets about me? Of course I have talked about this with him, prayed about it and know most of my fears are irrational. Only time will tell.